Calm After the Storm

I just wanted to do a quick post to thank everyone for your love and support these last couple of days. For those of you who are unaware of the craziness that has been our lives for the past few days, I will fill you in briefly. We got a call on Monday from our adoption agency telling us they had a potential match for us and could they send our profile to a birth mom in Michigan who was already dialated to a 5? We of course were so excited and said yes. Then we held our breath. Early the next morning we had a brief conference call with the birth mom and she let us know she had picked us. We were so excited!! We knew it would be any day so we rushed around making a zillion calls and tried to get our house ready. Well about 10:00pm that evening our agency called to tell us our birth mom was in labor. Jeff's parents were kind enough to allow us to use some of their frequent flier miles, we booked a flight and we were off early the next morning. Well the short version of what happened next is we got to Michigan on Weds night, and found out as we were getting ready to go to the hospital the next morning that the birth mom had decided against placing. It was a really awful time and made even worse because we were a long way away from our family and friends who we rely on for support. We decided to drive home (about 1500 miles or 24 hours) to spend some time by ourselves and heal. It was very healing to just drive and be able to talk. It's funny how easy it is to find beauty in the most heart wrenching of times. I saw my first sunset without mountains, and could have cried it was so beautiful and lasted so long.

And the scenery we passed on the way home was, at times, breath taking. Jeff and I are doing much better and just crossing our fingers that another situation will present itself soon. Thank you again for all of your love, and all of your prayers. They were very needed and very felt. We love you all!!